Dirty Little Secrets

I saw him everyday sitting on the first bench in the class, drinking in every word said by the professor. Even the super soporific power of the most boring of teachers couldn’t make him yawn. He was 6’1. He wore heavily magnified glasses which totally ruined the beauty of his honey brown eyes. He had a lanky profile. His walk always made it seem as if he was about to fall. He always carried the same boring black bag which was always in danger of tearing off due to the dozen books which were crammed into it. Checked shirt was the only kind of clothing he wore. His awesomely curly hair was always greased up with loads of hair oil. He was a nerd. And I was totally head over heals for this guy. What was it that attracted me towards him? Well, that’s a mystery to me too.  He was a very coy and quiet guy. Everyone teased him, called him words, he didn’t once retaliate. But did it hurt him? Yes. I had once seen him come out of the men’s room all puffy-eyed and his nose was a nasty s...

I weigh 70 kgs. i resemble more of a baby elephant than a 18 yr-old teenager. What's more? I don't give a damn. But i guess my parents do. They won't let a single day pass without yelling their heads off at me to STOP IT. Come on, how am i supposed to *stop it* anyways? I mean, what do you expect me to do when there's the tempting perfume of "French fries" wafting into my system on one side and sweat-breaking, irritating and mind-boggling dumbbells and treadmills on the other?                                                                                             I see people look at me and smirk. Some look at me with pitiful eyes as if being fat is the worst that could happen to me. Some just stare at me with disgust a...

I never understood before I never knew what love was for My heart was broke, my head was sore What a feeling Tied up in ancient history I didnt believe in destiny I look up you're standing next to me What a feeling What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine Brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, i don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine And it's brighter than sunshine I never saw it happening I'd given up and given in I just couldn't take the hurt again What a feeling I didn't have the strength to fight Suddenly you seemed so right Me and you What a feeling What a feeling in my soul Love burns brighter than sunshine It's brighter than sunshine Let the rain fall, I don't care I'm yours and suddenly you're mine Suddenly you're mine It's brighter than the sun It's brighter than the sun It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine. Love will remain a mystery But...

there are some moments in your life where you wish beg for a chasm to open beneath your feet so that you can bury yourself in it and get lost forever... then there are moments when you just feel like cutting a certain person into thousand minuscle pieces and throwing him into the deepest pit of hell... there are also moments where you know its your fault and there's no one else to blame and you end up feeling miserable... and then there are those moments where you don't know what's wrong, why you've suddenly started feeling so awkward, why your perfect exurbant mood has changed into that of misery... but the most troublesome are those moments where you know that the opposite person is wrong but you still can't help feeling embarrassed to face him and there's always that awkwardness and guilt in your conscience which you can't even explain to yourself... thats when you know you're losing it... what would you prefer? enemy OR friend turned aquaintan...

I've never been more aware of myself... It's as if someone has opened a window of a forsaken part of my mind which i had kept tightly shut and forgotten about until now. Everything's coming flooding back and changing my total self, introducing me to my other self, my alter-ego, the real me. I've never been more sure of myself... i know exactly what i want in life. my most inner desires, my wants, my needs, all spread out in front of me as if i'm watching some slow life-altering movie. All that i hated and loved, things i never thought i'd do or let happen; never thought i'd come across the real me. I now know exactly which path i need to walk on, where my life's supposed to head, where i'l see myself 10 yrs from now. I've never been so afraid of myself... I was never good with responsibilities. I always failed in that department. Same's the case with power. Power makes me over confident. It ruins me. I destroy myself. This self awareness, s...

Sometimes you wish...beg for some solitude and tranquility. Asking that from your family may well be the easiest thing to gain. After all they're family. They want to see you happy even if its their distance you're asking for, they wouldn't think twice. Only you realise - and it may be too late then - that what you've asked for is them to fuck off forever, atleast it's the way they've taken your wish to be. Much too late you realise that you've screwed things completely. What's done is done. There's no rewind, after all!

They say it’s a man’s world. Man’s world? Really? Infact, I think it has gradually turned into a women’s world. Everywhere you go, every news you see, girls are at the focal point. They’re at the core of all attention. Moreover, the core of all problems too. I’m a girl. However, I just can’t help noticing that guys have taken a backseat in EVERYTHING. May it be in a parliament or a small family? Women are the rulers now. And I know that I should feel happy about it but try as much as I do I just can’t bring myself to feel joyous about this situation at all. In fact, it feels as if I’m watching this very famous K-serial where a vamp (women in this case) plans every move in detail to get the desired throne and voila! Do you even see any guy around anymore? Instead of progress, it feels more like a con game to me. Maybe I’m just paranoid or I’m getting so cynical about everything these days that it has just given my point of view a 180 degree turn or maybe it’s just an after effec...